Back in the Spring, I read a bit of Ezekiel that had an impact on me. After a while I forgot about it, but then our pastor
brought it back again this Sunday. Read Ezekiel chapter 9.
Tonite I was thinking about this passage again as I was waiting for Erik to fall asleep. Its one thing to 'weep and sigh because of all
the sin' I see around me because if I don't, I'll potentially get deep-sixed. Its another thing to genuinely have those emotions
because I understand how God feels about the sin the people around me are involved in (and I sometimes myself get tangled up in too).
I prayed that God would show me how He feels about this.
And then I stopped cold. I wanted to take that prayer back because I have kids. Its was like God was telling me - 'If you really want
to know my heart, put this in the perspective of you and your children'. I wasn't comfortable with that.
Do you see where this is going? For me to understand God's heart - to really feel how He feels, I would have to experience what He does.
That is, I would have to be aware of my children doing things that I know will not benefit their ultimate good, and in fact could lead
to their destruction, and while I can let them know that I don't agree with what they are doing, and I can plead with them to stop, I have
to give them the freedom to choose.
